Right before my mastectomy, I made a video to remember my breasts before they were changed forever. It was a really emotional experience and I cried a lot while filming this. It was incredibly hard having to say goodbye to a part of my body.... to something that made me feel like a woman.. something I associated with life, beauty, and sensuality... a part of me I never thought I'd lose. I guess that is what cancer teaches us... to let go... to shift our perceptions... to let go of vanities... to see truth and beauty on deeper levels... and it pushes us to our limits, expanding that boundary further than we ever thought possible.
Short film documenting the day I had to shave my head because my hair was coming out in huge clumps due to chemotherapy treatments. What a hard day that was, the letting go, the working up the courage to go outside with my bald head.. and I had just gotten out of the hospital and was swollen up like a balloon. My kids were really good about it and luckily I had Daniel to help me through it and also to film this video upon my request.
I made this video to celebrate my hair before it fell out from chemo on my phone because my camera wasn't working and it was the last time I could film it. Needless to say I was pretty upset about the lacking quality, but I am glad I made it. A saying goodbye video, which was important to me. I love my old hair!